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Recovery

Fri Nov 20, 2009, 10:11 PM
  • Mood: Euphoric
  • Listening to: Coco Lee - A Love Before Time
  • Watching: Red vs Blue
  • Playing: Rainbow Six Vegas 2
  • Eating: Beef Hotdog
Alright, Sarah just got me to confess something she already knew. I'm not going to give any of you even a hint as to what it is though. It's a secret that I have kept well hidden from everyone, none of my closest friends would have figured this out, just her.

But when she told me what it was, it was something that amazed me beyond belief. It shocked me because it was something that I was not willing to talk with anyone about, and it wasn't something I brought up to her. When I heard her, I didn't even feel the instinct to deny it, because I trust her.

Not only that, but last night, a lot of healing took place because of that. There's still a lot of time that has to be taken to fix things, yet there's a lot more hope now then there ever was. It's a big difference between now and just a few days ago.

I'm not sure how she figured it out, but it's a huge relief to me that she knows me well enough to have found out.

I'm not telling anyone because it's something that would make everyone I know think differently of me. This kind of thing has always been hard on me, and something I rejected for most of my life after a few things happened long ago. Something that I pushed away and left in the back of my mind, far away from surface thoughts, not letting anyone hear or see signs of it out of me. But it's there. Like I said, only Sarah could guess it.

I'm going to go now, I have some reading to do.

...and NO I'M NOT GAY!! Just in case any of you were scratching your chins...

Sarah's even more humbled ninja,
Matthew

Matt: "DAMMIT THAT'S CLASSIFIED!!! SHIT!"

Kain: "Hey, if helps, it's not so bad."

"...the light that I see in your eyes will burn there always lit by the love we have shared before time."
-Coco Lee - A love before time

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  • Current Residence: Classified
  • Interests: Kicking your ass if I feel like it
  • Favourite movie: Too many to list
  • Favourite band or musician: Quite a few, too many to list
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything really, except country or bluegrass
  • Favourite artist: Ask me...I just might answer
  • Favourite poet or writer: Massaki Hatsumi
  • Favourite photographer: Kadara ^.^
  • Favourite style of art: Pretty much anything that captures my attention
  • Operating System: Windows XP and Vista, if you don't like, then I don't care
  • MP3 player of choice: My PPC
  • Shell of choice: Wha?
  • Favourite game: Oblivion
  • Favourite gaming platform: Anything
  • Personal Quote: "Anger ventilated often hurries towards forgiveness; anger concealed often hardens into revenge
  • Tools of the Trade: The world is my weapon

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:iconexotice1911:
There was a point when people actually missed me. But I had too much to do, and so people eventually forgot about me.

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"Life itself is will to power"
:iconkungfubellydancer:
No worries, I do the latter very often, all too often actually. I'm a known member on a forum and I keep vanishing....people forget about me.

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:iconexotice1911:
Wow, you must be stalking me, my most favorite band of all time is Staind. Yes, if you cover them, then...dammit, I can't think of a way to thank you.

You actually look forward to me online? Damn, another person to disappoint when I disappear for days at a time...oh well.

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"Life itself is will to power"
:iconkungfubellydancer:
Well, I can say that I look forward to seeing you online. There are few people I look forward to seeing online. *shrugs* I have such an awful headache.

By the way, do you have any songs you'd want me to cover? I've been thinking about doing "Right Here" by Staind.

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:iconexotice1911:
I think that it means that we're like...online friends or something. Something that I've barely kept up with in the last couple years. I think I'm starting to remember you...

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"Life itself is will to power"

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